Life

MyHorse , Belle I have had her going I. Six yrs she is a real doll

Garden of the gods, Colorado Springs ,Colorado2010

Daisy the cat 2009

The road thei the Orchard. 2013

Pinedale , Wyoming  an afternoon of thought love the reflection which suited my mind at the time 2010

Fremont lake ,Wyoming we were staying in a cabin on the lake ,,was awesome 

Scott Lake, Scott city, KS 2010 the geese were standing on a thin piece of ice 

The chicken Hilga, that had many lives before her death of ole age, she was quite the character and loved being photographed

Butterfly up close

Boats in the water , as the Sun was setting 2010 I think this was in Chattanooga ,Tn. 

Lake Murray, Oklahoma  early morning on the lake 2009

This morning

A strange thing happened to me this morning I normally awaken and quite a bit of pain and it takes a cup of coffee in a lot of pain meds and about two hours before I can move around and then by that time it's time to start all over again but this morning I awoke feeling happy in my heart which I have not felt for years years so I'm thinking thank you God Jesus and the Holy Spirit for giving me that wonderful feeling this morning I got up at 7 o'clock got dressed and went to the barn to see my Belle which I have not seen in six weeks, she is my wonderful safe Trail riding buddy that takes care of me even when I have to just hold on out of pain

So thank you Jesus for this morning it was so unbelievable to have that feeling again even though I am still in pain to feel that glorious feeling of joy peace and contentment that can only come from God

I thought this place shut down

I haven't been here in a while what is going on

It's sstarting to feel a little bit like Christmas

I feel so blessed this year as I have had three major spine surgeries in the last seven months have suffered a great deal and I have been very down to the deepest darkest part of my soul and once again I have came out all of it and survived
with the help of Jesus Christ
There were days when I just kept praying Jesus Jesus Jesus please help me and yes he did help me he gave me courage
to get up to fight this thing
The pain at times just to walk from room to room was so unbearable that I just laid on the sofa most of the day getting very little done Then about six weeks ago I made a trip to see Charlton in Newport News and when I came home I hurt so bad and I just prayed that this would end Brokedown had mental breakdown sat and cried for days My son-in-law came and found me on the kitchen floor just screaming and crying and he picked me up and held me and said it's going to be okay mums that's what he calls me and after that he and my daughter and my son became aware of how bad things were with me
They showed me much support and love is all they could remember was that I was their mother who was capable of fixing anything anything fixing their problems and I could not do this no longer
I could not fix myself and the love of them and the love of Jesus Christ awoke something deep down inside that said you can come out of this and gradually slowly I have each day found more strength to fight the pain and to keep moving moving moving

Getting ready for the birthday ofJesus Chris

I am blessed

Just back from

Newport News spent a week with hubby
Got an early Christmas present. A bicycle !!!ithink since I can't walk with pain of rods on SI joints. That I rode the bike and what a sense of freedom !!! Sailing around the parking lot of hotel it felt smooth as glass no hills tho lol

Now here I am in Newport News Virginia again

iPod for my birthday is pretty cool as it allows me to talk to text It's hard for me to type as my hands gO numb very easily I love it it's pink and white I really wanted iPad but it's probably too big for my hands I played be frustrated My hands would probably go numb
Charlton is very good to me today I am very very tired from Driving down here very hard on my neck and back although I do feel that I am finally getting a little better what a dark past six months it has been for me many days would not leave the house socialize with anyone i
fell down into a very deep dark hole that only my family could bring me up out of but mostly Jesus Christ is the one who gave me a feeling that I was not done for yet Sometimes feeling so alone and afraid and sad I'm in so much pain can lead one to believe there is nothing left for them but every day from now on when I try to make myself do stretches I look in the mirror and I keep telling myself your 56 you're not dead
you can make this work
You can pull yourself up of the very dark place Jesus will help me and the love of my family and my very few select friends have brought to me a new understanding of Me I have got to find my inner strength and the person that i used to be so some of that person come back