7 days post surgery,,,,, yesterday i

Walked thru the orchards behind my house. I felt so homesick, so broken. I remembered all the trails. BELLE and I have taken out there. I wanted to ride so badly. My heart ached to be upon her back ride along like we used to do. Jake, my dog, was with me even she seemed to wonder what was up. I cant say I was depressed. Just a deep longing I go for a check up on my lumbar fusion and end up the next day fusion on the neck. Now I dont know Abe. Or if I will be able to ride