It's sstarting to feel a little bit like Christmas

I feel so blessed this year as I have had three major spine surgeries in the last seven months have suffered a great deal and I have been very down to the deepest darkest part of my soul and once again I have came out all of it and survived
with the help of Jesus Christ
There were days when I just kept praying Jesus Jesus Jesus please help me and yes he did help me he gave me courage
to get up to fight this thing
The pain at times just to walk from room to room was so unbearable that I just laid on the sofa most of the day getting very little done Then about six weeks ago I made a trip to see Charlton in Newport News and when I came home I hurt so bad and I just prayed that this would end Brokedown had mental breakdown sat and cried for days My son-in-law came and found me on the kitchen floor just screaming and crying and he picked me up and held me and said it's going to be okay mums that's what he calls me and after that he and my daughter and my son became aware of how bad things were with me
They showed me much support and love is all they could remember was that I was their mother who was capable of fixing anything anything fixing their problems and I could not do this no longer
I could not fix myself and the love of them and the love of Jesus Christ awoke something deep down inside that said you can come out of this and gradually slowly I have each day found more strength to fight the pain and to keep moving moving moving